haha since when this has became my emo blog? ;P
many things happened throughout the month
i like a girl, but i think, predict, guess the girl dosen't like me.
and maybe she likes one of my close friends haha.
it hurts.
although you may see me always smiling, always doing retarded stuffs to make others happy,
but deep inside my heart, i'm not well.
i'm broken!
some of my besties asked me to confess, but i just don't wanna let you know that i love you.
i always think that i'm not good enough to be with you.
and of course no one wants to be with a short, ugly, dumb and someone who always speak vulgar words.
soo i shouldn't waste your time to even tell me that we won't be together.
she's the girl i really like
i didn't have this feeling for my past girlf's.
this girl is diff.
it's a pity, a pity.

ni jiao wo qu, wo yi ding qu.
hao xiang jing tian, wo qu le. ke shi que zhao bu dao ni
dang wo jiao ni qu yi ge di fang, yi ding shuo kan sian ran hou jiu shuo be de kong na xie li you

friends?

haha i thought i was soo lucky to have such good form5 friends, but i thought wrong.
i was treated like a puppet to everyone, some thinks i'm funny most of em thinks ima sohai
whenever i go out with em, i will always be left out or being the one that get bullied by them
asking friends of em to whack me and saying not to fetch me back home from somewhr in the middle of the night
saying their day was always better without me
whenever i play a sport, i make a mistake, i'll be criticized badly. whenever i do something right, i won't get praising
taking money away from my wallet and not returning
and not having faith and trust in me
are these the things a good friend will be treated?
brothers best friends, idk what are those things anymore.
does true friendship really exist?

20/06 midnight

1.36 an, just fin my convo with her. school tmr. good night chat with the special one, dead tired. goodnight! :)